Another bad friday

Again, our communication break down.

Again, we are arguing again.

Again, u given me another warning .

Agian, Im tears.


Ba, Im sorry because im digging ur past. i knew u are being hurt and maybe i really cant understand your feeling. But wat i meant is .. already 2 years, u still cant let it go? The women that u alwasy talk with, u still hate her? how come u can act so real? nobody can feel u still so hate her?

You told me before, hate means love... i just ask u whether do u still like her? of coz im leaving if u still like her... i just dun wish we are regretting on doing somthing. coz u seems really cant let go the past.

And this is not the matter who really hurt me, infact your sentences who hurt me so much.

" IF u wan go, just go... the status im now can attract many gals... and i no wory on finding a gal."

U know, u totally hurt my feeling. this is not the first time u said. if u stand at my position,
i was thinking of how come 2 years edi , i cant still get a status in ur heart but u are using material and money to criticize me ? i understand why u always remind urself about this, because u cant afford to being hurt by women. U are using ur words to make urself feel better and safe. BUT YOU ARE ABSULOTELY WRONG!!

I told u so many time, please dun be so cruel when arguing, please .. im just a gal who really care and love you so much... why u treat her like that?

maybe we should cool down for a period of time. let time to arrange our fate.


nite ba... be sleep la

A very lost day

Today is the most relax and boring day i ever had. I realised I've became a workaholic. I felt so wasting time when do ntg. I felt so bored when do ntg. AND the most worst things is i had lost my passion . I forgot what i had set for myself in the past. i dunno what is my future plan.

My brain is all full of him. My whole body and soul are all belongs to him. I only wish to help him in his career. I only wish to see him not so stress in work. I only wish he can archived what he wan. i really dun mind to sacrificed myself to him. because is more worth to have my own passion but giv it to someone i really love .

i really feel stress recently. Hard to explain whats my feeling now. How wish i can be like a bird, flying around. rest when tired, fly when needed, eat when hungry. But i knew that no matter how freedom to be a bird , it still nid a shutter to stay. where is my home then?